One day, she looked at herself in the mirror and instead of seeing something to try to control, she saw something to be trusted. 

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I’m sharing this again, because I’m finding myself more at home in my body on a whole new level these days(!!), and I know there’s no way I’m alone in this learning to “love the skin we’re in” <3

After battling an eating disorder, over-exercising, and body dysmorphia for almost a decade, I’ve been actively recovering for the last 5-6 years now. I still say “recovering” because I’m honestly not sure it will ever be gone 100%. It’s been like peeling back layers of an onion, this learning to trust (rather than control), accept and love my body. It’s no easy feat in the world we live in, where we’re fed messaging on how women should look, act, feel, and just BE from every angle 24/7. Not to mention we’re also taught to believe that the body is basically analogous to a machine that we should control with our calories and macros, or even a ticking time bomb when it comes to things like aging and illness... like our body is out to get us🤦🏻‍♀️

Coming back home to my body has been a great unlearning of all of this. And for that, I could not be more thankful because it’s been taking me on a journey beyond just the physical - it’s brought me straight into the depths of my humanness, my heart, soul, spirit, and my beliefs about worthiness. It’s been taking me home to ME, showing me all that I truly am. Because as I learn to trust my body more, to make myself at home in it, to choose to nurture it over punish or numb it, I’m choosing to honor my whole self... all of me.. too. 

And it feels like liberation🙌🏼
(yes, sometimes scary, but also exhilarating)

The more I lean into trust, the more I feel myself come alive. In all aspects of my life - my body, relationships, marriage, creativity, career... everything.

What I’ve learned is that we can’t simultaneously love and control. It can’t work like that. Love involves trust. And trust and control don’t mesh. To begin to love, we have to loosen our grip and shift our perspective. 

Put down your sword, and lean in. It’s time to come back home, to all of you <3