I was sitting outside one day last week, feeling overwhelmed, worried and anxious about... well, life stuff. Decisions related to my work as I’m creating, launching, and building a business that feels like birthing my own child it’s so near and dear to my heart. Worrying about what’s going on with this pandemic/will we or those we love get sick/how much longer/what will life be like after. Working through pieces of my personal healing, which has felt heightened in the most amazing and difficult way since this all started. Thinking about our home, security, plans for the future that all seems so up in the air right now.... you get the idea. My head can be a whirlwind of wondering and worry... it’s a blessing and a curse, like so many things.

I’ve been working on trusting myself. Hearing my own inner knowing/intuition/Higher Self/connection to the Universe/whatever you want to call it and truly listening to it. Really trusting what it tells me. So as I’m lying there in the grass, I ask something along the lines of: what do I need to do right now in order to live the life I dream of living?

And I hear (well, it’s more like a feeling or knowing inside of me): “It’s not up to you to make it happen, it’s up to you to let it happen.” Boom. Yes. And then I opened my eyes to look at the sky: “think of it like this - you are one of the clouds you see moving by you. Clouds let the wind move them, effortlessly allowing. The wind is Life/Source/God/Spirit.

This is not to say we aren’t responsible for creating the life we want or that we should sit and wait for things to happen rather than take action in life. But I think there is a place where trust needs to come in, and stay. A trust in a higher guidance, and a trust in ourselves. That we are fully supported, no matter what, and that whatever is being presented to us in life is there for a reason. That we have all we need inside of us, we are already whole. So we can put the endless striving, worrying, resisting, pushing aside and instead try to approach this moment, this experience, with an... openness. How would that feel instead? 

When I allow myself to really sink into that, I feel... freer. 

How about you?